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うっかりカツカツやって来て、うっかり居ない。( By O.) |
2026/09/13
2026/09/08
Hot Topic : 私が死んでも / Hot Topic: Even If I Die / Hot Topic
私は何故か、文学の作家さん達はあまり読者の事が好きでは無いのだろうと、長い間考えてきました。
あまり人の来歴とかプライベートの話は興味が無いので、誰か1人の文学者がどうのこうのというきっかけはありません。
ただ、あまり読者のことは好きではないのだろうな。と思って居ました。
きっと気難しいのだし、きっと厳しいのだし、きっと一般社会に居る私達に全く期待して居ないので、偶然言葉を交わすことがあれば、その厳しさを押さえて静かに接するので非常にストレスであろう。
読者のこちらが後で作家の先生の態度や様子を細部まで気にしているのも、知ればそのような軟弱な精神自体が良く無い、から始まり、昨今の教育がと、最終的にもう読者と会話したく無い、と決めているのかもしれない。
もし本当に街でプロの作家に遭遇したら、非常に注意しなければならないと考えて居ました。
ですが、ある夜、あまり知らない人とは話したくない私に、作家は読者をとてもとても大切に思っている。
お買い上げ有難うございます。どころでは無い。
ラブはあげられないけれど、生涯、共に歩み続ける存在になりたいくらい大切に思っている。
だからいつも心配の気持ちでいる。
と教えられました。
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物凄く驚き、余りに驚き過ぎて、一年くらい経過しているのですが、そうなんだそうです。
それ位、私は作家やライター、コラムニストは、読者のことを特になんということもなく、読者である。ファンである。という扱いなのだろうな。と考えて居ました。
また私は作家さん達は、とにかく無宗教でなければならないのだろうな。と考えて居ました。
よく分からないけれど、神様とかそういうのがいけない。とまた不機嫌に眉間に皺をよせてムスッと口も聞いてくれなさそうだ。と思って居ました。
違うそうです。
なので同じような人が世界中に無数にいると思うので、作家さんが他界した後、お葬式またはお別れ会に参加できない人達のことが、作家さん達も大変心配だろうと思い、色々と考えました。
追悼の式に掲げる御宗教についても、文筆界を見つめる社会の目は厳しいのだろうか？ と色々と心配事項がありますが、最終的に無宗教ということにして置くのが1番良いのではないかと思います。
御葬儀もお別れ会も、色々と生々しい人間模様が垣間見えて、辛い人は辛いし、それをジロジロ見に来る人もいそうです。
その上、先生ご愛用のペンや万年筆を見ると、もっともっと長生きをして欲しかったな、と読者の帰り道が、死んだ筈の先生の方が心配で仕方が無いと思います。
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私は、生前に先生ご自身が、そろそろ死にそうda NA⭐︎と判断された後、出版社の人と先生の個人事務所の人と弁護士事務所の方とで、
先生ご愛用のどの洋服にするかを決め、
どの御著書にするか選んで頂き、
その売り上げは最終的に、例えば先生のお名前を冠した基金に使うとか、御遺族にお送りするので利益にします、とだけ言うか決めて頂き、
読者のお一人お一人に、御遺品である、先生のお気に入りの服3着ほどの布地を、正方形に波型ピンキングハサミで切ったものを、追悼本に着けて販売して頂きたいんです。
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いわゆる形見分けになると思いますが、それ程の気持ちでおられるのだし、読者側も同じ気持ちなので、お別れ会に行くのも図々しいかも知れない、とか、そんなに沢山読んで居ないのでそもそも自分は読者と思って良いのだろうか？
という方も無数におられると思います。
私は実際に先生が腕を通した服が1番、読者の方が喜ぶと思います。
これからいつも一緒なのだと心強いと思います。
またいつか金に困った時も、早く古本屋さんに持って行って！と喜んで下さると思います。
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そういった故人を追悼するものは、ロケットに入れて普段使っても良いし、クローゼットのネクタイのところに掛けて置いても良いですよね。
実は、このようなジュエリーをマーニング・ジュエリーと呼ぶのだそうです。
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（Mourning jewelry）とは、喪に服す際や故人を偲ぶために身につける宝飾品の総称です。Google AIより
他に御遺灰、御遺髪、爪、骨の一部分をやはりロケットに入れて、マーニング・ジュエリーとするのだそうです。
ロケットに入れる場合、最近ではレジンで固めて入れるそうですが、琥珀を使うのが本来のやり方だそうです。
永遠の生命の保存： 琥珀は古代の樹液が化石化したものであり、時に太古の昆虫や植物を「当時の姿のまま完璧に保存」しています。この性質が、キリスト教の「魂の不死」や「肉体の復活」の希望と重ね合わされました。
「人魚の涙」「神の涙」： 欧州の伝承において、琥珀は涙が固まったものとされており、故人を悼む悲しみの涙を象徴するのにふさわしい素材とされました。
琥珀製のロケット： 琥珀をくり抜いたり、裏面をガラスや蓋付きの金属で仕上げたりして、中に遺髪を透かして見せるようなロケットペンダントが存在します。黄色〜蜂蜜色の温かみのある光は、「天国の光」や「故人の魂の輝き」を表現するものとして好まれました。Google AIより
最近では、メモリアル・ジュエリーとしてアマゾン等で販売されて居ます。
マーニング・ジュエリーのマーニング・Mourningは鎮魂という意味です。
私の住む日本では、メメントモリが同意味として言われて居ますが、それは間違いのようです。
メメントモリは警句で在り、「自分がいつか必ず死ぬことを忘れるな」という人生は限りがありますよ。という警告です。
マーニング・ジュエリーはモーニング・ジュエリーと長らく私の住む日本では呼ばれて居ましたが、本来はマーニングの発音の方が適切なので、マーニング・ジュエリーです。
マーニングの語源を検索すると
「マーニング」という言葉そのものはラテン語ではありません。
英語の姓（ラストネーム）や名として知られる Manning（マーニング） は、主に古ノルド語（サクソン系）や古英語、またはアイルランド語（ゲール語）に由来する名前です。
3. Manning（マーニング）本来の語源
人名の「Manning」の語源は、ラテン語圏ではなく以下の北欧・気質系が発祥です。古ノルド語（バイキングの言葉）: Manningi（勇敢な人、強い人）が由来。アイルランド（ゲール語）: Ó Mainnín（修道士の家系）が由来
Mourning jewelry ウィキペディア
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マーニング・ジュエリーはメメントモリより先に存在していました。
修道院は喪に服す人々が祈る場所ですので、追悼と鎮魂のジュエリーです。
現代では技術が進み、遺骨や遺髪を琥珀風の樹脂（レジン）に封入してペンダントにする現代的なメモリアルアクセサリーも増えていますが、その根底には「故人を肌身離さず持ち歩き、いつか天国で再会する」というキリスト教圏の長い歴史と精神が受け継がれています。Mourning jewelry ウィキペディア
https://w.wiki/UG36
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一人きりではありますが、洋風の葬儀が良いので、
誰気にすることも無く、死んだ後もクラシカルなお洒落をして棺に入り、杖が必要なのでそれも入れる予定です。
私は商業でやっていないのでそんな心配は無いのですが、もしそれ程までに強い読者が居た場合を考えたら、泣かれたく無いな、と思います。
どなたか泣いたとしても、ムードに流されて泣くぐらいなら特に問題はありませんが、ずっと深刻になって泣いておられたら、
その方がふと立ち上がり、はあ、とため息を吐かれながら手を洗っている後ろに立って、鏡にありありと映ってやろうと思います。
「！！」
「ーーーーーー。」
「・・・・サっ、サンドでーーっ！」
「1番嫌な洗面所OBKパターンで出て来ました。どしたの？なんでそんな泣くの？」
「だってエナメルさん、死んじゃって・・・、しくしくしくしく」
「 じゃあ人が死なないで済むよう具体的にどうしたら良いか考えてみてもらって良いですか？」
「本物だーー！ 洋風ですね死に装束。ハロウィンのですか？」
「うん結構安くて5千円だった。ーーー、じゃあ、泣かないでね。気まずいんで」
と限りなくエナメルな感じで帰ると思います。
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前編アナウンス入りの楽曲劇のような構成で、全部のトラックがカアリィと呼ばれた、It Girl ・ イット・ガール、 街中の憧れの女の子が主人公のアルバムです。
カアリィは少し恋多き、誰にもそんなに本気にはなって居ない様に見える、それは綺麗でお洒落でセレブな女の子なのですが、やがてたった1人、とても好きな相手に巡り会ってしまいます。
そして最期は、カアリィは街から去ってしまいます。
カアリィという女の子が街から消えただけで、まるで何かキネマのようだったシーズンが終わってしまい、人々はカアリィは本当にあの男のことが好きだったんだね、という気持ちになっているみたいな曲の後、この"私が死んでも"という楽曲でアルバムは終わり、カアリィからの、本当はこんなことを考えて居ました。というアンサーが流れます。
何だか切ないけれど、さっぱりとクールでドライな感じのカアリィからの最期の挨拶のような楽曲です。
小西さんご本人は創っている時に寺山修司が降りて来た、と後にインタビューでおっしゃって居ました。
私は、この感じが実感としていつも自分の中にあります。
商業でやっておられるプロの作家さんやライターさんコラムの方々が、実際どう思われるかは分かりようも無いのですが、幾人かは同じだろうな、ともはっきり分かります。
「この世はすべて舞台、男も女もみな役者にすぎない」
"All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players"
ウィリアム・シェイクスピア
人間は人生という大きなステージの上で、それぞれの役割を演じながら生きている存在であるという意味ウィキペディアより
シェイクスピアの劇のラストはいつもダンスなんだそうです。
恐らく小西康陽はこれを知った上で、楽曲劇集のカアリィに重ねたのだと思います。
私が死んでもを聴くと、まるで物語りの最後に全員出て来て、レビューショウをしている様です。
突然天国に帰天された場合は、皆、当然深い悲しみに沈みますが。
変な話ですが、ベッドか布団の上で帰天出来る儲けた最期の時間なのだったら、私もやはりこのような気持ちでいつも居るので、この楽曲を時々思い出しては暫く聴き、またその内聴かなくなるを繰り返して居ます。
” 何にもこの世には良いことなんて無かった貴方と逢ったこと たったそれだけ ”
このフレーズに差し掛かると、私はこの部分をどう歌うだろうか。と一瞬思いますが、いつも答えは一緒です。
"ドライに笑いながら、私は歌うだろう.
そんな自分で在り続けて本当に良かった、と思いながら."
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For some reason, I’ve long believed that literary writers probably don’t like their readers very much.
Since I’m not particularly interested in people’s backgrounds or personal lives, there isn’t any specific writer who prompted me to think this.
I just had this feeling that they probably don’t like their readers very much.
They’re surely prickly, surely demanding, and surely have absolutely no expectations of us ordinary people. So if they happen to exchange a few words with a reader, they’d have to suppress that sternness and interact calmly—which must be incredibly stressful for them.
The fact that we readers end up dwelling on every little detail of the author’s attitude and demeanor afterward might lead them to think, “If they’re aware of this, then that kind of weak-mindedness itself is no good,” and from there, they might start blaming modern education—and ultimately decide they simply don’t want to talk to readers anymore.
I used to think that if I ever actually ran into a professional author on the street, I’d have to be extremely careful.
But one night, even though I’m someone who doesn’t like to talk to people I don’t know very well, the author taught me that they cherish their readers very, very deeply.
It’s not just a matter of saying, “Thank you for your purchase.”
“I can’t give you love, but I cherish you so much that I want to be someone who walks alongside you for the rest of your life.”
That’s why they’re always worried about you.
That’s what I was taught.
Since I’m not particularly interested in people’s backgrounds or personal lives, there isn’t any specific writer who prompted me to think this.
I just had this feeling that they probably don’t like their readers very much.
They’re surely prickly, surely demanding, and surely have absolutely no expectations of us ordinary people. So if they happen to exchange a few words with a reader, they’d have to suppress that sternness and interact calmly—which must be incredibly stressful for them.
The fact that we readers end up dwelling on every little detail of the author’s attitude and demeanor afterward might lead them to think, “If they’re aware of this, then that kind of weak-mindedness itself is no good,” and from there, they might start blaming modern education—and ultimately decide they simply don’t want to talk to readers anymore.
I used to think that if I ever actually ran into a professional author on the street, I’d have to be extremely careful.
But one night, even though I’m someone who doesn’t like to talk to people I don’t know very well, the author taught me that they cherish their readers very, very deeply.
It’s not just a matter of saying, “Thank you for your purchase.”
“I can’t give you love, but I cherish you so much that I want to be someone who walks alongside you for the rest of your life.”
That’s why they’re always worried about you.
That’s what I was taught.
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I was incredibly surprised—so surprised, in fact, that even though about a year has passed, I’m still in shock. But apparently, that’s just how it is.
That’s how much I had come to believe that authors, writers, and columnists treat their readers as nothing special—just readers. Or fans.
I also used to think that authors, above all, must be non-religious.
I didn’t really understand why, but I imagined they’d frown disapprovingly, furrowing their brows, and refuse to even speak to me, as if saying, “God and things like that are off-limits.”
Apparently, that’s not the case.
Since I believe there are countless people like me all over the world, I thought about how writers must be very concerned about those who cannot attend their funerals or memorial services after they pass away, and I gave it a lot of thought.
I have various concerns—such as whether society’s gaze on the literary world is too harsh when it comes to the religious affiliation displayed at memorial services—but ultimately, I think it’s best to simply designate the event as non-religious.
At both funerals and memorial services, you get a glimpse of all sorts of raw human drama—it’s painful for those who are grieving, and there are bound to be people who come just to gawk.
On top of that, when readers see the pens and fountain pens the author used to love, I think they’ll feel, “I really wish they’d lived much, much longer,” and on their way home, they’ll be so worried about the author—who is supposed to be dead—that they won’t be able to stop thinking about it.
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decide which of the professor’s favorite garments to use,
ask him to select which of his books to include,
and state that the proceeds would ultimately be used, for example, to establish a fund in the professor’s name or sent to his surviving family as a benefit, and that’s all we would say or decide,
and I would like each and every reader to purchase a memorial book that includes, as part of the author’s legacy, fabric cut into squares with wavy pinking shears from about three of the author’s favorite garments.
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I think there are countless people who feel this way.
I actually think readers would be happiest to receive clothes that the author has actually worn.
It would be reassuring to know that they’ll always be with you from now on.
And if you ever find yourself short on cash again, I’m sure they’ll be happy to tell you, “Hurry up and take them to a used bookstore!”
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Actually, I’ve heard that this type of jewelry is called “mourning jewelry.”
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“Mourning jewelry” is a general term for jewelry worn during a period of mourning or to commemorate the deceased. From Google AI
I’ve heard that other items—such as ashes, locks of hair, fingernails, or fragments of bone—are also placed inside a locket to create memorial jewelry.
When placing these items in a locket, it’s said that resin is often used to encase them these days, but the traditional method is to use amber.
When placing these items in a locket, it’s said that resin is often used to encase them these days, but the traditional method is to use amber.
Preservation of Eternal Life: Amber is fossilized ancient tree sap that sometimes “perfectly preserves” prehistoric insects and plants “exactly as they were.” This characteristic has been associated with the Christian hopes for the “immortality of the soul” and the “resurrection of the body.”
“Mermaid’s Tears” and “God’s Tears”: In European folklore, amber is believed to be solidified tears, making it a fitting material to symbolize the tears of grief shed for the deceased.
Amber Lockets: There are locket pendants made of amber that have been hollowed out or finished on the back with glass or a lidded metal cover, allowing the hair of the deceased to be viewed through the amber. The warm, yellow to honey-colored glow was prized as a representation of “the light of heaven” or “the radiance of the deceased’s soul.” From Google AI
Recently, it has been sold on Amazon and other sites as memorial jewelry.
The “mourning” in “mourning jewelry” refers to the act of commemorating the deceased.
Here in Japan, where I live, “memento mori” is often used to convey the same meaning, but that seems to be incorrect.
“Memento mori” is a maxim—a warning that life is finite, reminding us, “Never forget that you will surely die one day.”
In Japan, where I live, “mourning jewelry” has long been called “mourning jewelry,” but since the pronunciation “mourning” is actually more accurate, the correct term is “mourning jewelry.”
When I looked up the etymology of “mourning,”
The “mourning” in “mourning jewelry” refers to the act of commemorating the deceased.
Here in Japan, where I live, “memento mori” is often used to convey the same meaning, but that seems to be incorrect.
“Memento mori” is a maxim—a warning that life is finite, reminding us, “Never forget that you will surely die one day.”
In Japan, where I live, “mourning jewelry” has long been called “mourning jewelry,” but since the pronunciation “mourning” is actually more accurate, the correct term is “mourning jewelry.”
When I looked up the etymology of “mourning,”
The word “Manning” itself is not Latin.Mourning jewelry predates memento mori.
“Manning,” known as an English surname or given name, is a name derived primarily from Old Norse (Saxon), Old English, or Irish (Gaelic).
3. The Original Etymology of “Manning”
The etymology of the personal name “Manning” does not originate from the Latin world but from the following Nordic and Celtic sources.
Old Norse (the language of the Vikings): Derived from “Manningi” (brave person, strong person).
Irish (Gaelic): Derived from “Ó Mainnín” (lineage of monks).
Mourning jewelry – Wikipedia
https://w.wiki/UG36
Since monasteries are places where those in mourning come to pray, this jewelry serves as a tribute to the deceased and a means of finding solace.
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Personally, I don’t plan on having a funeral, so I intend to be placed in my coffin wearing an antique dress, a black hat that looks like a headset, and some black lace as my burial attire.
Even though I’ll be alone, I’d like a Western-style funeral,
so without worrying about anyone else, I plan to be placed in the coffin dressed in a classic, stylish outfit—and since I’ll need my cane, I’ll include that too.
Since I’m not doing this professionally, I don’t really have to worry about that, but if I were to imagine a reader who was that devoted, I’d rather they didn’t cry.
Even if someone does cry—if it’s just because they’re swept up in the mood, that’s fine—but if they were to get really serious and keep crying,
I’d suddenly stand up, stand behind them as they wash their hands with a heavy sigh, and make sure I’m clearly reflected in the mirror.
“!!”
“—————.”
“...S-Sand—!”
“You showed up with the number one worst bathroom OBK scenario. What’s wrong? Why are you crying so much?”
“But Enamel-san died... sniffle, sniffle, sniffle, sniffle.”
“So, could you please think of a specific way to prevent people from dying?”
“It’s the real thing!! The death outfit is Western-style. Is it for Halloween?”
“Yeah, it was pretty cheap—5,000 yen. ——, okay, don’t cry. It’s awkward.”
And I think I’d head home, acting as much like Enamel as possible.
The song “Even If I Die” is the final track on the album *Kaarii*, which Yasuharu Konishi created inspired by Karia Nomoto, an artist signed to his own label.
Structured like a musical drama with an introductory announcement in the first part, the album centers on a character named Kaarii—an “It Girl,” the object of everyone’s admiration on the streets.
Kaarii is a girl who has had her share of romances; she doesn’t seem to take anyone too seriously—she’s beautiful, stylish, and part of the celebrity scene—but eventually, she meets the one person she truly loves.
And in the end, Kaarii leaves the city.
Just as Kaarii disappears from the city, it feels as though a season—one that was almost like a movie—has come to an end. After a song that leaves listeners feeling, “So Kaarii really did love that guy,” the album concludes with this track, “Even If I Die,” which serves as Kaarii’s response, revealing what she was truly thinking all along.
It’s a song that feels like a final farewell from Kaarii—somewhat poignant, yet crisp, cool, and detached.
Mr. Konishi himself later mentioned in an interview that Shuji Terayama came to him while he was creating it.
I always feel this sensation deep within myself.
I have no way of knowing what professional authors, writers, and columnists working in the commercial world actually think, but I know for certain that some of them must feel the same way.
Even though I’ll be alone, I’d like a Western-style funeral,
so without worrying about anyone else, I plan to be placed in the coffin dressed in a classic, stylish outfit—and since I’ll need my cane, I’ll include that too.
Since I’m not doing this professionally, I don’t really have to worry about that, but if I were to imagine a reader who was that devoted, I’d rather they didn’t cry.
Even if someone does cry—if it’s just because they’re swept up in the mood, that’s fine—but if they were to get really serious and keep crying,
I’d suddenly stand up, stand behind them as they wash their hands with a heavy sigh, and make sure I’m clearly reflected in the mirror.
“!!”
“—————.”
“...S-Sand—!”
“You showed up with the number one worst bathroom OBK scenario. What’s wrong? Why are you crying so much?”
“But Enamel-san died... sniffle, sniffle, sniffle, sniffle.”
“So, could you please think of a specific way to prevent people from dying?”
“It’s the real thing!! The death outfit is Western-style. Is it for Halloween?”
“Yeah, it was pretty cheap—5,000 yen. ——, okay, don’t cry. It’s awkward.”
And I think I’d head home, acting as much like Enamel as possible.
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Structured like a musical drama with an introductory announcement in the first part, the album centers on a character named Kaarii—an “It Girl,” the object of everyone’s admiration on the streets.
Kaarii is a girl who has had her share of romances; she doesn’t seem to take anyone too seriously—she’s beautiful, stylish, and part of the celebrity scene—but eventually, she meets the one person she truly loves.
And in the end, Kaarii leaves the city.
Just as Kaarii disappears from the city, it feels as though a season—one that was almost like a movie—has come to an end. After a song that leaves listeners feeling, “So Kaarii really did love that guy,” the album concludes with this track, “Even If I Die,” which serves as Kaarii’s response, revealing what she was truly thinking all along.
It’s a song that feels like a final farewell from Kaarii—somewhat poignant, yet crisp, cool, and detached.
Mr. Konishi himself later mentioned in an interview that Shuji Terayama came to him while he was creating it.
I always feel this sensation deep within myself.
I have no way of knowing what professional authors, writers, and columnists working in the commercial world actually think, but I know for certain that some of them must feel the same way.
“All the world’s a stage, and all men and women merely players.”
William Shakespeare
William Shakespeare
This means that human beings are beings who live their lives by playing their respective roles on the grand stage of life.From Wikipedia
I’ve heard that Shakespeare’s plays always end with a dance.
I suspect Yasuharu Konishi knew this when he incorporated it into the song cycle *Karii*.
When I listen to “Even If I Die,” it feels as if everyone has come out at the end of the story to perform a revue.
Of course, if I were to suddenly pass away and go to heaven, everyone would naturally be overcome with deep sorrow.
It may sound strange, but if I were to be so fortunate as to spend my final moments in bed or on a futon, I imagine I’d feel this way too. So, I find myself occasionally remembering this song, listening to it for a while, and then eventually stopping—only to repeat the cycle again later.
I suspect Yasuharu Konishi knew this when he incorporated it into the song cycle *Karii*.
When I listen to “Even If I Die,” it feels as if everyone has come out at the end of the story to perform a revue.
Of course, if I were to suddenly pass away and go to heaven, everyone would naturally be overcome with deep sorrow.
It may sound strange, but if I were to be so fortunate as to spend my final moments in bed or on a futon, I imagine I’d feel this way too. So, I find myself occasionally remembering this song, listening to it for a while, and then eventually stopping—only to repeat the cycle again later.
"Nothing in this world was ever good.
Meeting you—that was the only good thing."
Meeting you—that was the only good thing."
When I get to this phrase, I wonder for a moment, “How should I sing this part?” but the answer is always the same.
"With a dry laugh, I’ll sing.
Thinking to myself, I’m so glad I’ve stayed true to myself."
Thinking to myself, I’m so glad I’ve stayed true to myself."
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2026/09/06
大切な何か病 / “Something Important” Hate Syndrome / Sunday edition
日曜日なので、穏やかな内容を書いています。
長く美容室に行かない期間というのがあって、多分事実として体力が無いか体調が2ヶ月くらいしないと回復しない時期なのでしょう。
何故かそういう風に組み立てて考えるやり方があまり無いようなのですが。
気持ちが落ち込み気味でその期間が1週間以上続く、1ヶ月から2ヶ月まで続く場合、私の住む国では中国大陸由来の漢方の考え方「未病（みびょう）」という言葉で表現されています。
繰り返し書いているのには理由があり、病気では無いが体調が悪いというのは、未だ発見されていない病気であったり、とうに病名も治療法も科学的に確立され、国が病気であると判断し保険適用となっているのにも関わらず、世の中でお馴染みの病気ではないから、単に知られていないだけなんですね。
体調が悪い、何というのでは無く体調の悪さが続き、大きな病気でも無いし、自分で調べてもその予兆が出ている訳でも無い。
一度内科に行きたいのだけれども、大したこと無いと思われ、些細なことで大袈裟に騒ぐと思われたくない。コンビニエンスストアには行けるのだし。
本当に病気と診断されて居なくともそれは体調が悪いので、
気のせいとか、
気持ちを明るくとか、
人と話さないからだ、とか、
知り合いたくもないタイプの、
テレビのバラエティそっくり物真似をして、
突然こちらの了解も取らずに、
番組の司会者や1番人気の芸人さんの役を勝手に成り切って始め出し、
初対面のこちらに、
テレビで放送されている通りの、
誰もしないだろう過去の失敗話を執拗に話させようとしたり、
面白くもなんとも無く、
この人何か薬物でもやってるんだろうか？ という、
お前だけにしか分からない価値観だけで、
昔テレビ関係者に何か注意されて逆恨みでもしているのか？
それとも6歳児以下の精神状態のまま成人し、
薄気味悪がられて大人になっても誰にも何も言ってもらえないんだろうか。
としか思えない人が、
訝しげにしているだけの他の人達に向かって、
「リアクション！」「今のいらない」「最後は余計」「それが欲しかった」
と、
この人にだけにしか見えて居ないテレビカメラがあったらどうしよう・・・。
という人達と話すと、
その体調不良からくる気持ちの落ち込みが消えますよ。
自分のことを正直に、精神的露出狂になりましょう。ありのままが1番良いんです。
と、長年本気で信じ込んでオフィシャルでも、マスメディアでも堂々と、
呆れ果てるようなことを大声で言い張っている人達が未だに居るんですよね。
自分はこんな人達としか巡り会えないので、今度お祓いに行った方が良いんだろうか？ と心配になるのが、
私の住む国ではお馴染みです。
その人達の特徴は、
医者は病気を治せない。
科学治療はオーガニックでは無い。
化学療法は効かない。
科学は冷たい。
数字では理解できないことが多大にある。
普段の生活で小学1年生以前の生活態度社会態度を取り、
言動も異様なところがある。
又、そういう人間ほど、
具合が悪そうな人や気分がすぐれず静かにしている人に、
自分だけは、寄り添うだけでその具合の悪さ、不調を治癒することが出来る。
治癒というと治療を指すので、癒せるのだ、という誇大妄想の賜物を大変自慢にその上自信にしているようで、何故かタメ口で指導しようとするのでも、有名です。
きっと有名人になりたいのでしょうけれども、
名前が轟かなくてももう世の中で有名なんですけれど、
ご本人だけがいつまでたっても気が付かず、
子供の物真似、6歳児以下のコスプレを20過ぎても30過ぎても40過ぎても続け、
スナフキンを理解してると延々繰り返し続け、
「ミイはいい子よ。」と言っていれば、
大切な何かを自分だけが見つけることが出来、
皆が忘れ去ってしまっている大切な何かを自分達だけは忘れて居ない。
お金の無い昭和10年代の田舎の裏の畑で、押し付けあった養育結果の正月用家族写真を
煤けた夕方に撮ってもらった記憶が、
日本が忘れてしまった大切な何かほっこり、なんでもひらがな、子供は天才なので、コロナワクチンも子供に作ってもらいましょう。一歩歩くたびに本人だけにしか聞こえない「ほっこりほっこり」と効果音がしているらしい。
ままごと遊びのお母さん役お姉さん役をいきなりやり出せば、職場で誰かには返事はして貰える、
大切な何かが大好きな、”ここではないどこかさん達”が、その人達の通称です。
私は延々この手あいに興味が無いのですが、同じ感覚をお持ちであろう草野マサムネさんは、私だけが勝手に思い込んでいる心の中だけの親友です。
ライター構文ってこれですか？
ウェブ文体の間違いじゃないんですか？
本当に気をつけて暮らさないといけませんね。
この未病は、とにかく一般社会に病名が浸透して居ないのか、未だ発見されていない病気なのか分かりませんので、必ず内科を受診して下さい。
1番良いのは総合内科です。
そして医者のアドバイス通りに薬を飲んだり、食生活、睡眠時間を工夫したのにも関わらずまだ体調が改善しなければ、セカンド・オピニオンという、他のお医者さんに掛かっても問題は無い医療の選択がありますので、ぜひその方法も選択肢に入れて下さい。
セカンド・オピニオンは、
最初の内科と次の内科のお医者さんの診察を、医師の診断と他の医師、二つのデータで見比べて、
さらに診断材料にして、症状の短時間経過での推移と、
患者への対応に反映させることが出来る、医療機関の利用法のことです。
1990年代には日本全国に確立されて居ますので、症状が改善されなければ、必ず他の内科を受診してみて下さい。
私自身も、セカンド・オピニオンにご理解がある医師の話を、当時インターネット上に上げて居ます。
また脳を含め、人間の体はすべて臓器です。
胃や腸、心臓、等の病気は薬で治療しますよね？
脳も同様です。
薬を飲んで病気を治すというのは、科学治療です。
あても無く、脳という臓器への古い1種類の薬だけを淡々と出し続ける治療など存在しません。
ひとつの脳疾患への投薬治療は、臨床データに基づいた、国が認定した約数十種類の薬が存在します。
当然、保険適用とされています。
また脳の疾患を持たれている方々は、証言能力が疑わしいとされる、というのは全くのデタラメです。
当人の説明だけでは無く、行動理由だけで、また状況を時系列に出していくだけで、証言は可能だからです。
ご存じの通り、お医者さんは医師免許というものを取得する為に、ただ頭が良いだけでは無い免許取得の勉強を、臨床（りんしょう）を含めた経験をした上で国家資格を取得しています。
美容師が専門資格を取得しているのも、人の体に触る資格がどれ程厳格であるか分かると思います。
つまりヘアメイクを店頭でどこまで客に施しても良いか、実は厳格に企業が定めている範囲でしかやってはならないんです。
人に定期的に食事を提供する調理師の資格も非常に厳しい、簡単には取れない国家資格です。
それを見て居ただけで准看護師の資格が取れたとか、栄養学すらまともに話せないのに、ほっこりだの優しさだの寄り添うだの言い張って、まるでご自身が医者のように他者に見せるのを、詐欺と言います。
本当に皆さん、気をつけて下さいね。
涼しくなって来ましたね。
それでは、静かな秋を祝う素敵な日曜日をお過ごし下さい。
エナメル付記 日本のエンターテインメントコメディアン用語で”あるある”と言われそうですが、これは”いるいる”です。
20260906 14:46 文章を直しました。
20260907 14:35 文章を直し付記を追加しました。
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Since it’s Sunday, I’m writing about something gentle.
There are times when I go a long time without visiting the hair salon—probably because, in reality, I lack the physical stamina or my health simply doesn’t recover for about two months.
For some reason, I don’t often find myself thinking about things in that way.
When I feel a bit down and that period lasts for more than a week—or even one to two months—in the country where I live, it’s described using the term “mibyo,” a concept from traditional Chinese medicine originating in mainland China.
There’s a reason I keep writing about this: feeling unwell without actually being sick could mean you have a disease that hasn’t been discovered yet, or it could mean you have a condition for which a diagnosis and treatment have long been scientifically established—and which the government has officially recognized as a disease covered by insurance—but it’s simply not widely known because it isn’t a familiar illness to the general public.
It’s not about what exactly is wrong; it’s that the feeling of being unwell persists. It’s not a serious illness, and even when I look it up myself, I don’t see any signs that I’m showing symptoms of a specific condition.
I’d like to see an internist, but I’m afraid they’ll think it’s nothing serious, and I don’t want to come across as making a big deal out of a minor issue. After all, I can still go to the convenience store.
Even if I haven’t actually been diagnosed with a disease, I still feel unwell, so people say things like,
“It’s all in your head,”
“Cheer up,”
“It’s because you don’t talk to people,” or
or the kind of person I wouldn’t even want to know—
someone who does spot-on impressions of TV variety shows,
and suddenly, without even asking for my permission,
starts acting out the roles of the show’s host or the most popular comedian on their own,
and tries to get me—a complete stranger—
to talk at length about past failures that no one would ever bring up,
just like they do on TV,
or says things that aren’t funny at all,
making me wonder, “Is this person on drugs or something?” —
based solely on a set of values that only he understands,
Did he get reprimanded by someone in the TV industry long ago and is now holding a grudge?
Or did he reach adulthood while still mentally at the level of a six-year-old or younger,
and because people find him creepy, no one has ever told him anything, even as an adult?
That’s the only way I can think of this person,
who, facing others who are merely looking at them suspiciously,
shouts, “Reaction!” “That part’s unnecessary,” “The end was superfluous,” “That’s what I wanted,”
and
makes you wonder, “What if there really were a TV camera that only this person could see…?”
When you talk to people like that,
the low mood caused by your physical discomfort will disappear.
Be honest about yourself—become a mental exhibitionist. Being your true self is best.
And yet, there are still people who have genuinely believed this for years and who, whether in official settings or in the mass media,
boldly and loudly insist on things that are utterly baffling.
Since I seem to run into only people like this, I start to worry, “Maybe I should go get a purification ritual next time?”
This is a familiar scenario in the country where I live.
The characteristics of these people are:
Doctors can’t cure diseases.
Scientific treatments aren’t organic.
Chemotherapy doesn’t work.
Science is cold.
There are countless things that can’t be understood through numbers.
In their daily lives, they behave as if they’re in first grade or younger—both in their personal and social attitudes—
and their words and actions are often bizarre.
Furthermore, the very people who hold these views
are famous for approaching those who look unwell or are feeling down and keeping to themselves,
believing that simply by being by their side, they alone can cure that illness or discomfort.
Since the term “healing” implies treatment, they seem to take great pride in—and even draw confidence from—this delusion of grandeur that they can “heal” others. They’re also famous for trying to give advice in a casual, familiar tone for some reason.
I’m sure they want to be famous,
but even without a name that’s a household word, they’re already famous in the world—
it’s just that they themselves never seem to realize it,
continuing to imitate children and dress up as characters suited for kids under six even after they’ve passed 20, 30, and 40,
endlessly repeating that they “understand Snufkin,”
and saying, “Mii is a good girl.” —as long as they keep saying that,
they believe they alone can discover something precious,
and that they, and they alone, haven’t forgotten something precious that everyone else has long since forgotten.
I remember having our New Year’s family photo—the result of parents shoving the responsibility of raising us onto one another—taken in the soot-stained twilight of a back field in the countryside during the Showa 10s, when money was scarce.
That warm, fuzzy feeling of something precious that Japan has forgotten—everything in hiragana—and since children are geniuses, let’s have them develop the COVID vaccine, too. Apparently, with every step I take, there’s a sound effect of “warm and fuzzy, warm and fuzzy” that only I can hear.
If I suddenly start playing the roles of “Mom” and “Big Sister” in a pretend-play game, someone at work will respond to me—
that’s the nickname for those “Somewhere Else People” who love something precious.
I’ve never had the slightest interest in this sort of thing, but Masamune Kusano—who likely shares my sensibilities—is my best friend, existing only in my mind, a figure I’ve arbitrarily imagined.
Is this what they call “writer’s syntax”?
Isn’t this just a mistake in web writing style?
We really do need to be careful in our daily lives.
Since I’m not sure if this “pre-disease” condition is simply not widely recognized by the general public or if it’s an undiscovered illness, please be sure to see an internist.
A general internal medicine department is your best bet.
And if your condition still doesn’t improve even after taking medication as advised by your doctor and adjusting your diet and sleep schedule, there’s a medical option called a “second opinion”—seeing another doctor—so please be sure to consider that as well.
A “second opinion” is
a way to utilize medical services where you compare the findings from the initial internal medicine consultation with those from a subsequent one—using the diagnoses from both doctors as data—
to further inform the diagnosis, track the progression of symptoms over a short period,
and adjust the treatment plan accordingly.
This practice became established throughout Japan in the 1990s, so if your symptoms do not improve, please be sure to visit another internal medicine specialist.
I myself posted information online at the time about doctors who were open to the idea of seeking a second opinion.
Furthermore, the human body—including the brain—is made up entirely of organs.
We treat diseases of the stomach, intestines, heart, and so on with medication, don’t we?
The brain is no different.
Taking medication to cure a disease is a scientific treatment.
There is no such thing as treatment that involves aimlessly and mechanically prescribing a single, outdated type of medication for the brain as an organ.
For the pharmacological treatment of a single brain disorder, there are several dozen types of medications approved by the government and based on clinical data.
Naturally, these are covered by insurance.
Furthermore, the claim that people with brain disorders are deemed unreliable witnesses is complete nonsense.
This is because testimony is possible not only through the person’s own explanation but also by examining the reasons behind their actions and simply presenting the sequence of events in chronological order.
As you know, in order to obtain a medical license, doctors must undergo rigorous training—which requires more than just intelligence—and gain clinical experience before earning their national certification.
The fact that hairdressers hold specialized licenses also demonstrates just how strict the requirements are for any profession that involves physical contact with the human body.
In other words, the extent to which a hairdresser is allowed to perform hair and makeup services on a customer in a salon is strictly limited to the scope defined by the company.
The certification for chefs who regularly prepare meals for others is also a very rigorous national certification that isn’t easy to obtain.
It’s called fraud when someone claims to have earned a licensed practical nurse certification just by watching others do it, or insists on using terms like “Fuck heartwarming,” “Fuck kindness,” and “Fuck being there for others”—even though they can’t even speak properly about nutrition—and presents themselves to others as if they were doctors.
Everyone, please be very careful.
It’s starting to get cooler, isn’t it?
Well then, I hope you have a wonderful Sunday celebrating the quiet autumn.
It’s called fraud when someone claims to have earned a licensed practical nurse certification just by watching others do it, or insists on using terms like “Fuck heartwarming,” “Fuck kindness,” and “Fuck being there for others”—even though they can’t even speak properly about nutrition—and presents themselves to others as if they were doctors.
Everyone, please be very careful.
It’s starting to get cooler, isn’t it?
Well then, I hope you have a wonderful Sunday celebrating the quiet autumn.
Enamel Note: In Japanese entertainment and comedy terminology, this might be called “Aru Aru,” but it’s actually “Iru Iru.”
20260906 14:46 Revised the text.
20260907 14:35 Revised the text and Added a note.
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